my pieces :)

use the menu to the right to navigate to each individual piece, and then click the title of the piece once you're there to return to the top of the page. feel free to contact me wherever if you'd like to discuss writing or anything like that :) i don't expect its likely but please link back and give credit if you do share my work elsewhere. poetry is posted in full while longer prose pieces will be snippeted and then linked to another page.

shout-out to ellipsus for letting me copy my works as html rather than having to format them myself

please be aware that some of these pieces deal with sensitive topics that aren't warned for.

poetry

sweet theatre

it is a sweet kind of theatre

to watch a woman drown

flower petals glaze the water's edges

the pollen caught in her petticoats

melts until it gilds her shoes


it is a sweet kind of theatre

to watch a woman's fear

she thrusts stems in a king's face

a queen's nose

her rattled screams never wanted


it is a sweet kind of theatre

to watch a woman left alone

what is a woman when no one listens?

a perfect tragedy

she is untouchable


it is a sweet kind of theatre

to grasp a woman in your hands

to drink her

body and soul

devour her


it is a sweet kind of theatre

to drag a woman down

feed her words like candied violas

do not let her breathe

leave them on her lips when she spits them out


it is a sweet kind of theatre

to let a woman drown

to pick up her limp body

[drizzled in the nectar of words gone unheard]

to consume her


it is a sweet kind of theatre

to relish

Ophelia.

this is a piece inspired by a product i saw, either on the globe website or the royal shakespeare company website, which was various bars of chocolate/tins of hot chocolate marketed as being inspired by various shakespearean female characters. i was honestly stunned to see it, and i felt very strongly about the commodification of these very important characters, particularly Ophelia, who is a woman abused and driven to madness by misogynistic characters including her father, her brother, her partner, and her king. crazy what merch they make these days.

mother tongue

i lost my mother tongue before i was born

my mother’s mother carved the words on its grave

the weather every day i visit that tomb is dreich

is grey, is miserable, is untranslateable until it isnt

is unknowable until explained


my childhood monsters are three-pronged:

chained unicorn, corralled longhorn

never free as they wander the broad-narrow streets of grounds long conquered

the cry of the mockingbird is louder than whistles and whipcracks and jangling spurs

they were never there and now they have returned


lone star, independent,

no one has ever been quite like me

even my sister exists within the boundaries while i am stuck outwith

ootwither

my presence as vulgar as it is improbable

impossible in the dark eyes of my mother 

and the pale eyes of a military man i will never quite know


the thistles hide in the grasses of a place i cannot call home

to tear my soul to pieces with royal purple petals

so i bleed the colours of a clan unclaimed

and a clan that was never mine

i have fallen far from the tree, trampled by a bull i cannot hold onto


i lost my mother tongue before i was born

my mother’s mother twisted by its loss

i will lose my father’s love in no time at all

his father warmed only by lit cigarettes and dying engines

paper proves i belong to two places

but neither belong to me.

so like basically i never grew up with 'sufficient' cultural influence from the places my parents are from and as a result feel as though i belong to neither of those places and also belong nowhere else yk

vassal

make not a sound

stop singing

 

run away

vagrant

 

you should remember nothing

you will remember despair

 

the moon is your ruler

her love is luck is loss

 

you are tied to her

but only by the earth

 

taste triumph until your pulse

breaks away

 

tape your heart back together 

from memory

 

defy her

victim

 

dare to doubt her voice

for she will always ask why

 

leave her in the silence she made

do not comfort the light

 

it is only a mirror of absence

it is only the ghost of a lullaby

 

finish this

voyager

 

lone fool

leave her eyes behind

 

let her mad dream lie

dead.

this one is about my mother.

prose

141 words

Beau had buried the dead before. He was no gravedigger, but he still carried a shovel as he wandered the plains between towns. He had learned what bodies hitting the bottom of graves sounded like.

He had learned that no one else wanted to hear it.  

Beau had only buried what he loved twice. His mother was the first body he’d buried, when he used to wrap them in shrouds to protect them from the dust. Tonight, he buried Jericho. Jericho. The only thing he’d had beside him as he buried nameless bodies, as he stood vigil until sunrise, was finally laid beneath cold, dry earth. Jericho had left him after promising he would never.

He had nothing left to stand with, not anymore, not when the last thing he had left was six feet under dust.

So, he walked away.


this was a class assignment to write a complete piece in exactly 141 words, hence the uncreative title. it's a really cool way to write flash fiction and i do recommend trying it just for the sake of trying it. i've admired weird west as a genre/concept for quite a while so it is really cool to have a complete piece that comes under that. i've thought about expanding the piece, but the most i did was write Jericho's perspective (in more than 141 words, shame) and i feel like even that was saying too much. it is what makes it 'weird' west, though, so that's just underneath this piece :)

cont.

Jericho had died before. If his Father had been telling the truth, he’d been born dead. It was the storm that came that same night that seemed to bring him back. Jericho was no logician, but he could spot patterns from three miles away. 

Every time he died, the rain brought him back. 


Jericho usually didn’t mind dying. Le petit mort was named so for a reason: death was the final, pleasurable end. Of course, for Jericho, it wasn’t particularly final, but it still brought him peace in a way not much else could. Not until Beau. Beau, too kind for his own good. Beau, who always spoke so gently to the horses they’d hire to travel between towns. Beau, with his sad eyes and beaten shovel. Jericho had promised he would never leave him. 


Jericho had always been a liar. But this death had been cruel; had been needless. This time, he had somewhere to go when the rains would come. 


He would always follow Beau. 

see, now it's weird. this one came to 162 words, and i cant think of how to condense it further than i already have.